*screams at the top of me lungs*
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nuff said O.O
I wanna go home but I don’t wanna go home. I mean, I kinda like it here but I wish the people that I miss so much back home could be here. I would love some sunshine in this wintery cold!
It’s just nice to be around people you’ve known all your life especially when you’re just so fed up trying to express yourself and getting yourself misunderstood all the time!
I wish everything could end right now. I wish I could forward time to the day I finish my critical review presentation and report, my research report, ALL my placements and just graduate (at the end of this year – prays really hard!!)
I feel like I always don’t do enough. Or rather, whatever I do (however much effort I put into it) seems never good enough…and not having the satisfaction of seeing the fruitfulness of it. Sigh. If only it was part of me to speak in public or blabber my way through so easily like how everyone else do! It’s just so unfair that nothing seems good enough despite giving your best!
As you can tell, I always choose to blog in times like this. Boo hoo.
Giving up is never the option tho it has come across my mind countless times! More so at this point when everyone is talking about grad at year end. All the ‘what ifs…’ just floods my mind. Gah, oh Lord…as Your word reminds me not to let my heart be troubled, may You grant me Your peace and comfort in all my anxiety/worries/anxiousness/lack of self-confidence. You are my everything!
Is it possible to be soooo hungry overnight, you wake up vomitting? I don’t rmb being hungry and bothered by it in the early morning having difficulties breathing and the constant urge to puke!
So I woke up, brushed my teeth and had some weetbix and raisins (ym’s fav) for breakfast. Seems to be feeling better. Now I wish I had some asam with me. I miss that tit-bits stall in summit! No more munchies!
It’s a Sunday morning and I’m awake wayyy before I normally do for church. Might as well write a lil more since I haven’t been updating for a while now. Entering my 5th week of research placement this Monday. Pretty excited about the outcomes I’d get out of this project but not looking forward to going into the ICU on monday. It gets pretty daunting at times. Especially having to see the patients 5days a week. *heart pain*
Although I would ideally need the patients in my study to be mechanically ventilated for at least 72 hours and be in the ICU for 14 days, I’m glad most of them are transferred out much earlier. Good for them, not good for me but yea, I was sooo happy when I went down into the ICU on Friday not seeing Patient X anymore. He weaned off the tubes pretty fast and was coping well, thus transferred into the ward (:
Clearly my heart is not strong enough. Oh wells, I’ll get there nonetheless.
On a lighter note, he’s HERE!!!!!
Have a great week ahead peeps! Missing you guys!
I missed the Jetstar’s crazy 5cent flight sales! Boo hoo…Why oh why (of all the days) did I not come online at night. Could have flew to Perth for 10cents return…or Melbourne or Sydney or Cairns or Tasmania…anywhere in AUSTRALIA!…and because it is THAT cheap I could have just taken a weekend off. Sigh…wasted.
*cries*
I know this is a horrible thing to be asking. It is a good sign when the ICU of a hospital is quiet and not overflowing with patients BUT as selfish as this sounds…I’m worried as I’m in my 3rd week and I have a total of 10 weeks to complete EVERYTHING! How on earth am I gonna recruit 100 patients when so far I’ve only gotten ONE in my study. There’s a potential other but that would only make TWO! Don’t dare to pray for more patients as that would mean people would have to be sicker and their conditions would worsen. Gah…HELP!
On a lighter note, this free time is benefiting my thesis writing. Which is a blessing in disguise I guess (:
TWELVE more days til he arrives!
THREE weeks after that, she arrives!
A MONTH or so after that, he arrives!
This year has been goin by too fast! It's already May! They say time flies when you’re having fun. I’d say time flies when you’re stressed too! @_@
*singing to the tune of Mraz’s song*
I’ve been feeling so tired everyday since I started my placement. Each time I step on the bus, I’d doze of! Thankfully I haven’t overslept (:
Today was an interesting day, although quite quiet in the hospital and for some reason the ICU has been really quiet over the weekend and even today (which is starting to worry me) cos I’ve only been able to recruit ONE patient into my study and I’m already in my 3rd week! But I guess it’s a blessing in disguise…cos with all this free time, I can sit and write my introduction and methods as well as my literature review.
Ohyea, back to the day being interesting…I actually think it’s not that interesting already. Feeling really sleepy. Will do my work tmr. Time to get some beauty sleep.
