Feels like home

Deeply in love with this song at the moment

Somethin’ in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There’s somethin’ in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I’ve been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you’ve done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I’m alright, ’cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I’ve waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I’d love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong
-Chantal Kreviazuk

Don't know why but I've been pretty emotional these days. Fill me with some touching story and I'd cry like a baby. Even some of the actions of a father-daughter relationship or mother-daughter or even brother-sister relationship for that matter makes my heart melt. Geez, I never knew I'd be worked up this much. Even a song I happen to hear which has the slightest sentimental memories I have with any member of my immediate family...my heart just melts and automatically cries. Although sometimes I do try to hide it but sometimes I just let it out. Can't be crying all the time can I? Need to be strong!!!! It was hard no doubt bout it the first few days after the sudden emptyness in my life but I've learned to fill that up with decent things. Thank God it's not been filled with a load full of rubbish that would slowly eat me up alive. Ggaahhh I miss home. The home that was once filled with joy and laughter we'd share together as a family...discussions or talks bout issues and facts of life...making silly jokes...teasing each other...or even getting on each other's nerves (no family ain't perfect u know).

Just missing the good old days. Wish I could re-live it and change somethings that I wished I never did and tell them how much I really appreciate even the slightest things that they do and quit complainning bout the petty things. Time is passing way to fast. Can't imagine the thought of having to move out and to live on my own and start earning my own money to support myself or maybe even my parents instead. Wait I am already doing that...well just not the last two parts yet.

AAAHHHH can't wait til finals are over. Can't wait to flyyyyyyy. It'll be my first time ever to the states. Feeling extremely excited right now. Definitely is GOd's blessing cos if my dad weren't to study there I wouldn't even have this opportunity to go overseas just for holidays. Gosh this is definitely amazing. Guess He did it again. When things just don't seem to go the way you want it to...there's a reason to it cos sometimes we dwell in the things that are coming our way and keep questionning God "WHY" but fail to just take a step back and look at the bigger picture of HIs almighty plan for us. AFter all He knows what's best for us doesn't HE? Sigh I am just so truly grateful that I have an almighty God to depend on. My gratitude to Him is at inifinity and I just can't thank Him enough for all the blessings He has gave me. For ALL the things HE has done in my life. He's just so amazing. Superbly wonderful. Simply beyond description.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for His name's sake.
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
-Psalms 23